I wasn’t sure where to put this post as it concerns an issue that is both doctrinal and personal. Please bear with me.
There is a teaching regarding salvation that I have come across, regarding how to be saved, that goes something like this:
If someone comes to the realisation that they need salvation then they should pray earnestly to God until he gives them an assurance that they are saved. Until it is granted, they are lost. They might be crying out for days, weeks or even months before this happens.
An example of this teaching can be heard from about 4min into this clip of Paul Washer preaching.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=oo9uN76LoL0
I have heard a similar thing was taught by the classic ‘revivalist’ preachers: I even understand that the Wesley brothers each had an agonizing period where they believed they were not saved - that was until they both felt they had received the witness of the Spirit (most notably John’s Aldersgate experience).
Such a teaching would maintain that it is not enough to repent, believe and then trust in the promises of God - one must have an inner sense of peace, otherwise one is not saved.
I have a number of problems with this:
It suggests that God is reluctant to save and will only begrudgingly save when one has grovelled enough before him, which is contrary to the bible. I can’t find a single case in scripture where someone was denied forgiveness and salvation (whether actually or in a parable) when coming with a penitent heart. Indeed “All those the Father gives me will come to me, and whoever comes to me I will never drive away” (John 6:37).
I can think of many examples to the contrary from just surveying the book of Luke: The penitent tax collector went home ‘justified’ (18:14) , the desperate criminal was immediately assured of paradise after he cried out to Jesus (23:43), The father rushed to welcome the prodigal son while he was still far off (15:19)and sinful woman seemed to realize the mercy of Jesus, weep and serve simply by encountering him (7:36-50). The conversions recorded in Acts seem to take place fairly quickly and there is no incident of somebody being put to shame (Romans 10:11) or even held in suspense when they have come to God with a sincere heart.
More acutely , this kind of teaching has caused myself much inner turmoil. I have lacked assurance of my own salvation for many years now and have cried out to God many, many times. In fact, an almost daily prayer of mine is ‘Lord, save me and if you already have, please let me know’. I have no inner sense of the ‘Witness of the Spirit’ so all I have to lean on, and trust on is Christ and the bare promises laid out in scripture that he turns none away who truly come to him.
In the words of the hymn “I dare not trust the sweetest frame, but wholly trust in Jesus name”.
If the kind of teaching I have mentioned is true, then it would strongly imply that I am in big, big trouble and that God has been refusing to save me for years. Such a thought makes it very difficult for me to love God (which then only exacerbates the situation, see 1 Cor 16:22).
Now, I understand that people definitely have strong experiences of the Holy Spirit after conversion – Indeed, I still hope and pray for one. It’s just this whole experience as being necessary for salvation teaching that bothers me.
Any thoughts would be truly welcome
Butters
