I'm clueless as to how to find the post that I put up yesterday morning, my Email is johnzee79@yahoo.com if someone would PLEASE help me in some way be it finding my post or just Gods answer to living in a " secret sin " so to speak. I KNOW God's desire is for us to be totally free of bondage .... I see how God uses me yet I know He could use me so much more if I could totally submit or be delivered from oppresion or what ever it is that " plagues " me please Email me to help I guess until I can figure out how to find my post. I'll never give up the fight, yet I know more and more each day that I'm utterly powerless to fight sin, the enemy, or anything not of God on my own. It's hard to find companionship, friends ( Godly, I want NOTHING but Godly people in my life ) I work second shift. I find it hard to even wake up for church as I seem to not even be able to wake up early enough all week and by Sunday I'm in the habbit of sleeping till at least noon :(. It's Saturday night now. I must confess my sins, as James 5:16 says " confess your faults to one another, and pray one for another, that ye may be healed. The effectual fevent prayer of a righteous man availeth much". It's either me, ( but I think not ) that to confess my sins would bring judgement of people upon me ) Last night I went out and bought crack .... recent " habbit " of mine I guess makes no sense to me cause I've really never done this drug b4. I'm sick n tired of living in slavery to sin be it sexual thoughts or sexual action, drugs, anger, bitterness or what ever!!!!!! I know God intends SOOOOO much more for me. He has shown me such things. Yet I continue to live in defeat ..... PLEASE HELP !!!!
