need prayer i have much anguish right now in my heart

I am praying for you, brother. Rest in the knowledge that God will never leave you nor forsake you. He is with you right now.

You can't be "good enough" for God. Our righteousness is as filthy rags. And, of course, God loves us so much that he died for us while we were yet sinners. He is always longing to hold you in His arms.

Romans 8:31-39

31 What shall we then say to these things? If God be for us, who can be against us? 32 He that spared not his own Son, but delivered him up for us all, how shall he not with him also freely give us all things? 33 Who shall lay any thing to the charge of God's elect? It is God that justifieth. 34 Who is he that condemneth? It is Christ that died, yea rather, that is risen again, who is even at the right hand of God, who also maketh intercession for us. 35 Who shall separate us from the love of Christ? shall tribulation, or distress, or persecution, or famine, or nakedness, or peril, or sword?

36 As it is written, For thy sake we are killed all the day long; we are accounted as sheep for the slaughter.

37 Nay, in all these things we are more than conquerors through him that loved us. 38For I am persuaded, that neither death, nor life, nor angels, nor principalities, nor powers, nor things present, nor things to come, 39Nor height, nor depth, nor any other creature, shall be able to separate us from the love of God, which is in Christ Jesus our Lord.

I will be praying that you will overcome anxiety. I have noticed from myself experiencing anxiety, that it came from the accumulation of the negative thoughts in my head. There's so much currently going on in my life at this present time that I've been anxious, nervous, and feeling like I am ill. Just continue to pray, and fellowship with God and I promise you that those dreadful feelings will cease.

God Bless you,

John, I have prayed much for you since I came on SI 2 years ago...I don't recall if you ever made contact with Jim Logan, but I think you could benefit from more "professional" Christian counseling than some of us are able to offer here...I don't minimize your anxiety and sufferings in any way...I just think you could benefit by someone who deals with these things and could be better equipped to help you. I will continue to pray for you....

One thing is for sure,you have been robbed of your joy.

I think the enemy in these last days is working overtime.

The joy of the lord is my strength.So what does the enemy do?He isolates and then goes for the kill.

Once he takes your joy,and faith you are putty in his hand.

So don't put up with it.Learn how to stand in faith.Cultivate your quite time.

Don't go by feeling.Tell yourself your are going to do it,and follow through.

As you make moves toward God the enemy will for a fact also move toward you.It is his job.Rebuke him and make him go.Rise up and do it.I promise you he will leave you.(If you are not in some sin or rebellion).

I wish all believers would seek the baptism of the Holy Spirit.It is the power of the walk.

BTW,
I have been under almost the same attack!

You got to look at the walk with God differently.It seems horrible to you right now.You are in what is called the "dark hour of the soul".

Watch what happens as you activate faith.You will begin to come out of that pit.

I have been in it a few times,and have learned that seasons come to every believer.

Begin to look at the attacks as awesome,and the deliverance from them as awesomer.

Our walk is an adventure.Enjoy the ride! :) :)

Have as your testimony the awesome power that God brought you out of such a dark hour.

If i saw you in person I could show you how to stand in faith.
When you learn how,the whole ball game changes.You will never be the same.

"but i woke up again earlier and read hebrews chapter ten and read some of the commentary on it by Matthew Henry and a few others and it really has just brought more fear on me."

Brother, I encourage you to leave that passage in Heb. 10 alone just now. Quit tormenting yourself with it. Rather, read passages that will bolster your confidence.

Keep yourself in the love of God. Walk in love. Show love. Find an opportunity to show love to someone, and do it.

That will assure your conscience, the apostle John says.

"My little children, let us not love in word, neither in tongue, but in deed and in truth.
And HEREBY we know that we are of the truth, and shall assure (persuade) our hearts (our conscience) before Him..."

Your heart (your conscience) in a state of weakness will be trying to condemn you.

But John is saying that love will persuade the conscience so that it is no longer able to do that.

For, John says, "God is greater than our heart (our conscience) and knoweth all things."

In other words, our conscience doesn't know all things. It can be in a state weakness, of darkness. But God is greater than our conscience and knows all things; He knows that we are His, that He loves us with an everlasting love, and that we love Him. Though our love be but a weak love, He receives it. He knows what Christ has done on Calvary to "put away sin by the sacrifice of Himself." He knows He is going to see you through, brother. He has no intention of saying Good-bye to you.

"Five bleeding wounds He bears,
Received on Calvary:
They pour effectual prayers,
They strongly plead for me;
Forgive him, O forgive, they cry,
Nor let that ransomed sinner die."

[by psalm1
If i saw you in person I could show you how to stand in faith.
When you learn how,the whole ball game changes.You will never be the same.]

Psalm1,
why don't you start a thread in this forum on how to do so. Surely it will help people like bible4life and others. Will you prayerfully consider this. Thks

Bible4life,
1 thing that I believe that brings God glory is to see that despite whatever difficulties/challenges the devil or God might throw at us, we still steadfastly refuse to let go of God. This is my pitiful contribution in this thread.

As long as we refuse to let God go, we still have a chance. That is the most important thing. Never ever let God go till your dying breath.