My boss is always saying that I am not structured (coming late, irresponsible etc) in my job. I also accept it.
What I felt was, If I start to please him (boss), he will use me like any thing. To finish that work I have to spend enormous amount of time. Finally I have to be slave to him and to that work. He is such a talkative that he can convert all spiritual things to work, like work is "devotion".
Once I was addicted to that work and neglected God. So now I tried to escape from that and doing my work slowly. But it gives a impression that I am slow in work and not structured.
God honored me with excellent results, even by boss was jealous at some point of time. He gave some of my projects (I have done) to others without my name. In that time I understood that, cheating is OK than quarreling. Here I may loose some thing but I can learn eternal things. Because of this decision I have learned vary valuable things, sacrifices, respecting authority. Also God gave chance to share testimony to others through this.
However, I am feeling what I am doing is dishonoring the name of God, due to my inactivity at my work place. I don't know how to proceed in future. I have fear that once I started to obey boss again I may become like machine results away from God.
Please encourage and suggest me through bible.
