Pls help-desperate.

As some of you may know I am undergoing some very painful trials right now. I take some comfort in the attached thread below.

https://www.sermonindex.net/modules/newbb/viewtopic.php?mode=viewtopic&topic_id=45770&forum=35&start=20&viewmode=flat&order=0

However, there is at least 1 thing that is bothering me greatly and I really need help/advise from Christians. I am having intense spiritual pains (intensity seems to be increasing)everyday for weeks now. The pain can be broken-heartedness/aloneness/fear/pain/dread etc. The main one is broken-heartedness. Plus now I have problems sleeping because there is a fear there (not my ownself fear but a fear that is present)

The thing is the pain is so intense especially the broken-heartedness that I can barely survive. I can really understand now why people say you can die of a broken-heart. Also, yesterday, there were thoughts of commiting suicide. Now, does God really put such pain until you cannot bear it. This is not a 1 time thing and it has been pretty long already. I really need help as to whether this is all God or God and the devil or what. I need help on how to tackle this.

I'm not sure how much I can bear this type of pain and intensity and desperately seek advise on this. Pls do not ignore. I really am in need of counsel here. I have been obeying God to the best of my abilities and really don't understand what is going on. The intensity and length is just too much to bear.

There have been moments such as the last few hours when I went to church, where I was completely feeling normal. The THis is certainly not something physical. Its confirmed spiritual.

Pls help. THanks.

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I have been there and it is very painful. I have a testimony for real. I started going into spiritual warfare and it worked and it is still working. My days have gotten a lot better and I know that your days will get better too. I will be praying for you. If you can listen to Derek Prince sermons. There's a website called Lake Hamilton Bible Camp. On the website you can listen to their sermons which are very helpful. God bless you.

I will be praying for you before I go to sleep tonight. May you find encouragement in the arms of the Lord.

[by Lee500 on 2012/8/25 23:25:08
I have been there and it is very painful. I have a testimony for real. I started going into spiritual warfare and it worked and it is still working. My days have gotten a lot better and I know that your days will get better too. I will be praying for you. If you can listen to Derek Prince sermons. There's a website called Lake Hamilton Bible Camp. On the website you can listen to their sermons which are very helpful. God bless you]

Lee500,
is it possible that I contact you by email. My email is in my profile. Or do you want to join the women's googlegroups in this thread. I really need some advise. I'm scare that I can't bear up to it. BTW, how do you go into spiritual warfare--quote scriptures? I am going to go to Derek Prince sermons. Can you pls keep an eye on this thread because I will really need your help. Is this an attack of the devil? Ok, I am going to go to Derek Prince sermons shortly.

https://www.sermonindex.net/modules/newbb/viewtopic.php?topic_id=46301&forum=36&37

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ccchhhrrriiisss,
thanks so much. You are really a real brother to me.

I have to figure out how to call. I'm not in the USA.
When I figure out how to call, I will let you know. Later tonight I have to go to church, so I may not be able to call today. Pls keep an eye on this thread.

Actually was wondering, do you want to do skype? I believe its way cheaper.

Let me go and look at the alternatives. THanks.

Yes, I can meet you on the womens group. What is your schedule like. It is late in the states and I need to get some rest.

Hi Lee500,
My email is learnlearn29@yahoo.com. Do you want to email me?

My schedule now is horrible because I have problems sleeping. Pls let me know your schedule (are you based in USA ET or what?). I will follow your schedule.
THanks.

I do have Skype on my other computer. I have to download it on this computer.

I am going to email you now.

It is very expensive to call into the states. Meet me on the womens discussion board. I was going to email you but it will be best to stay on this site for now.

Hi JIG,

1 way to communicate is go to a forum that has pm (personal mail) function. I think it may make the most sense? I will try to find a forum that has this ability. I think I will post it in the googlegroup and get somebody to send the information to you. Do you have anybody in mind?

I will not be able to do it today though and you are going to sleep anyway.

Thanks JIG.

Lee500,

Can we communicate by email instead of the womens discussion board? I would prefer that as its very private and I like to keep the conversation between the 2 of us. THanks.

I don't usually give me email address out because it is for my business.

Lee500,
I see. Let me think of something than. Because its very private and I do not want it to go on the whole googlegroupwomen's forum. Plus, you will need to give your email adress to join the googlegroupwomen's forum.

I'm not having any pain now, hopefully it won't come today--well maybe later tonight after church? I will need time to figure something out.

Thanks for hanging out in the meantime. Just keep an eye on this thread and I will let you know what I can come up with. Thanks.

Do you have a facebook? Not to be mean but I have had problems before in the past with giving my email address out. I just finished praying for you. When you pray at night command evil spirits to go in the name of Jesus Christ. For example: if you can't sleep walk through your house and say out loud, I command for you to go in the name of Jesus. Honey, rebuke those evil spirits in the name of Jesus and trust me they will go. Pray out loud each opportunity you get and thank Jesus over and over again. The Lord will fight your battles. I was feeling the same way last week, and I got up and did a communion and I declared those evil spirits to go and they left. The closer you get to God they will try to invade but you have to beaware of how they operate and don't by any means be afraid of them. They will flee when you rebuke them and say our Father in Heaven name. Remember our God is a living God, he is there with you.

Hi Lee500,

No, I don't have facebook.

We are saved aren't we? Its just that the evil spirits is trying to torment us although the holy spirit is in us. Pls confirm?

The devil comes to destroy, kill and steal, right? Usually the ones who are close to God are the ones that the devil will try to distract. It seems to me that the devil is trying to do that to you. The book of Job is a good book to read. It will also be good for you to get a prophetic word. I will give you some websites, tomorrow. A prophetic word will give you some clarity but don't worry yourself. You are going to be fine. I promise you that you will be fine. Anoint your bed post at night and ask God to give you sound rest and he will. I don't know if this bears witness with you or not but are you in a broken relationship?

[by lee500
I don't know if this bears witness with you or not but are you in a broken relationship? ]

No, that's the thing. This is all spiritual. That's why I keep saying its either God or the devil or both of them. That's why I am so confused and need to know how to tackle this.

When I actually have lucid moments and the pain goes away, I actually feel normal except for the ache because of the severity of attacks (as long as you try not to think of it, only the ache remains).

The problem is there is so many attacks (sometimes in 1 day, its attack after attack after attack). Sometimes in 1 day, its 1 extremely strong attack that makes me so weak that it takes hours to recuperate and I have a few hours before the next one comes.

Onemite,
You asked a question whether its related to my circumstances. No, its not. It has nothing to do with my circumstance. That's why I'm so convinced its either God or the devil or both. Sigh! I'm totally perplexed.

Perplex is bad enough. Its the pain/ache/whatever/fear it is that I have a big problem with.