I administer psychotic medication daily. It's designed to keep the body from doing harm to themselves and to others. We have people here that take massive dosages, without them they could become very violent. The demons that are present can't manifest themselves as they desire to as the body is suppressed by the medication they take.
There is a way out brother but your going to have to do something that is against your belief. You need deliverance.
I have a dear brother that I love very much and he to is on medication and living in a care facility. How he came to this unfortunate way is beyond me. But there he is. I am forced to believe that God allowed this thing to happen, or perhaps he had a stubborn will and this was the only way God could break him. My Sister who is not in a care facility was given anti depressants as well and they were making her crazy so she stopped taking them. However, the Vodka that she is drinking has increased dramatically. Every 3 days she guzzles down a quart. She too has a stubborn will, oh is she ever thick headed. The medication at least would make her sleep, but the Vodka keeps her awake and she is seeing the same results of the side affects of the medication without the need to sleep.
If I were you and if I was taking this medication, usually there is a slit on the surface of the pill and sometimes it's quartered. If I was feeling the affects of this drug and it was making me feel loco, I would cut the pill in half or by quarters (depending on the slit) and take the half or the quarter daily until I got used to that amount and build myself up to a stronger dose, if needed of course. I may be able to cope with the lower dosage than the higher, so I would have no reason to increase my intake.
When we see some improvements of happiness in our residents lives we contact the doctor to ask them to reduce the medication and they tell us to cut the pill in half or by quarters to see how well they perform. You may want to do that.
If there is no slit(s) or it's one of those dissolve under the tongue jobbies, there is nothing you can do unless you ask the doc to reduce the dosage to half and see how that works. If the pill has no slit, and you cut it anyway, there is no guarantee that you'll get a half dosage, because the full dosage could be in the half that your taking. With the slit or quartered, it means that the medication is portioned equally in the pill. For example, if the medication your taking is 100mg, than the pill with the slit in it has 2 equal parts of 50mg, or quartered would have 25mg in each quarter.
Believe it not, a good natural anti depressant is the vitamin B Niacin. When taking daily it helps reduce anxiety and worry. Whenever I would feel anxious, Mother always told me to take Niacin, it always worked, but then silly me, I would stop taking it after I felt better.
I would highly recommend you seeking a Naturopathic Doctor in your area. There are alternatives out there besides conventional drugs.
And Miccah is correct, things like these take several weeks to get into the swing of things. That goes the same for Metformin for diabetics and Macardis for people with high blood pressure.
And my prayers are with you.
