sorry for my failure to update. it has been.a roller coaster, most of the time downhill. My husband is stable but still needs constant hydration by IV and is not eating much. That is the next battle. He is crying out to God for healing so that he can truly live for Christ to glorify His name and preach his word. I have been reading the Psalms to him out loud and there are so many promises there that God hears our humble prayers and that He answers them. It is hard to know this and still be so sick. It is also humbling to know that the Father did not choose to heal our dear Brother Jennings or Brother Kenanston, both of whom lived for Christ always, unlike my husband and I who have been very worldly until a few years ago. It makes me think that I am much more unworthy than they to be blessed by God with healing. But I will continue to pray.
My husband has been confessing daily things that lay hidden in his heart, even from him. He is holding fast to 2 Cor 4:2: "Having renounced the hidden things of shame." Having gone through this experience has given him a perspective of sin closer to that of the Father, who despises even the appearance of sin and any entanglement with the world. He has not been speaking much lately other than to pray.
Please pray that God will raise him up healthy and strong to lead our family in Christ and to serve Christ with all his heart, all his soul, all his mind, and all his strength. Pray also that God will give me strength to be my husband's strength and his caregiver. I have slept very little in the last couple of weeks, never more than a couple of hours at a time. I know the Lord is sustaining me. I also collapse emotionally sometimes to see my husband suffering and see seemingly no response from the Lord to my prayers, although I know in my heart He is GOOD AND FAITHFUL. WHERE ELSE CAN I GO BUT TO THE LORD?
Thank you for caring and for reading this. Thank you also for your petitions to the Lord on our behalf.
Natalie - from my phone