prayer request for me

I am struggling with overcoming. I have been in a battle for a while now and have some good progress but I still haven't gotten a major breakthrough.

My wife and I both have rebellious pasts. That being said, I have not been as merciful as God would have liked me to be with her.

my prayer request is that I would be born again. Brother Zac said "do you struggle with hate? you must be born again!" I want to open all the doors of my soul to God and let Him rule in every room. I also want to be genuine. And take all the blame on myself for my sin and shortcoming.

I ask for this prayer request because I know what I am asking is purely of God and I can't imitate it or fake it.

In Jesus name, love to you all

Noah

Dear brother,
It sounds as if you have believed in the Lord Jesus to be saved and he has forgiven your sins. Have you been baptized in the Name of the Lord Jesus and Holy Spirit? Then you are a new creature, the old has passed away and all things are new in Christ. You have died with Jesus on the cross and have been raised to new life in Jesus Christ.

As a simple Chinese believer once said, you now have "Resident Boss" living inside of you. You are able to obey Him. If you have bitterness or anger against your wife, confess your sin to God, then know you are able to love your wife. Ask her to forgive you. Christ in you enables you to love her as He loves you. There is no condemnation for those in Christ Jesus. You don't have to fake anything.
Keep reading the Word of God daily to get it in your heart and mind.

This is a continual walk and if we stumble He will pick us up and we keep going. Conviction comes from Holy Spirit. Condemnation comes from Satan. Satan has no authority over you.

Lord, I lift up my dear brother Noah to you. He has been made righteous because of you. Pour out your peace upon as he hears your voice. For he belongs to you Lord. Show him what to do right now, Lord. In Jesus Name I pray.

Be encouraged brother. He loves you and will guide you as you yield to His Spirit. He hears you!!!!!
Sister Leslie

In case anyone is praying I wanted to add that I recently read Professor Finney's Lectures on Faith Lecture II 1/16/1839.

http://www.gospeltruth.net/1839OE/390116_faith.htm

It opened me up to see the problems I am having in not truly having faith in the Lord for forgiveness and also to obey Him in faith. I have been doing all kinds of "works" to "get" grace from God instead of believing in Him rightly and receiving grace first. my foundation is being fixed.

thanks saints