appolus wrote:
And so we disagree, you say that absolute surrender comes at some point way down the road of our walk, so we are, according to your opinion, all working our way to some kind of total surrender. I say that it comes at the beginning and that is why we are saved in the first place, because we give the Lord our lives, just as we were, still in our sin, crying out to Him and surrendering to Him.
I agree that absolute surrender comes at the beginning. We surrender everything we have and commit ourselves to follow the Lord with hearts full of gratitude and love.
But I am sure that there will be agreement, that it is at this point when we really start to learn about ourselves and the very deep damage that is within us. The Lord leads us on pathways which expose ourselves, not so that He knows us, as He already does, but so that we ourselves learn and understand what is within us and how we react to the many testings and trials that ensure.
As the Lord shines His light within, we see dark places that we never knew existed and fail at times when we thought that we would be strong. The journey has been likened to climbing a mountain. We are not delivered to the top when we first know the truth, but we are at the bottom. The journey involves slipping down and regaining our footsteps, reaching places where we stand still for a while or even find a pathway that leads us in the wrong direction and we are lost for a while. Then the light shines and we are back on track.
It is up to us how far up the mountain we reach, and some sadly give up before reaching the top. But if we are determined, for some, there comes a point when the Lord reveals a truth which totally transforms them and takes them to the top, and it is unwise for those who have not reached this point yet in their journey, to discount the witness of many who have.
It is foolish indeed to think that there is no danger around the corner and ignore the warnings of those who are walking in the opposite direction to us, just because we have never faced such a danger.
If we wish to know if we have the truth, it is very easy as Colin says: What is the inner witness? Have we fallen from our first love? Do others see a holy life in us? Does our wife or husband say that we are holy men and women?
The human soul is deep indeed and only the revelation of God can show us whether we are surrendering all. Of course we believe that we are until there comes a point where we are clearly shown that we have been blind and we should never close our minds to the possibility of this, and the knowledge that we have been wrong. It is not humility to believe otherwise.