"For sin shall not have dominion over you, for you are not under law but under grace." (Romans 6:14) - Bible4life, know that God's love for you is unconditional, it does not depend on your behaviour or your desire for Him. He loves you very much, and He is now with you - not because of anything you have done, but solely on the basis of the blood of Jesus.
"Then they said to Him, "What shall we do, that we may work the works of God?" Jesus answered and said to them, "This is the work of God, that you believe in Him whom He sent."" (John 6:28-29) - The only thing for us to do is to believe these truths, and that will set you free.
I just wanted to say, you may know already. but it might help you to get a book about the Battlefield for the mind from somewhere .... A good Christian book about the mind. Someone here might know of a really good one, maybe they could help out.
The Book of Romans is excellent! But it took me many years before I begun to understand it for what it is, and grasp it correctly.
I haven't read much of it, but there are many who like Bill Gillham's "Lifetime Guarantee". You might wanna pick that up.