DEPRESSED

Pls pray for me, i'm struggling to believe in christ love, not because i don't know it's real but because i've so much abuse his mercies, and every word of love i hear seem to add to my guilt. Today makes it 8days i've been depressed, i believe God has forgiven me, yet i'm troubled because it appears it's now a habit for me to sin and presume on God's mercies. I also fear i'm being set aside and i'm losing hope of being useful to God. Pls pray

Brother,

Flee from whatever sin you are coddling or allowing in your life that is bringing such guilt upon you. Be honest and even confess it to another brother or elder brother in confidence. There is consquence to sins and sin but God can also restore and use you for His kingdom. Please do not give up.

Please read this free pdf ebook:
(Pdf Book) When We have Failed, What Next? by K.P. Yohannan
https://www.sermonindex.net/modules/mydownloads/visit.php?lid=25607

We all have failed. We cringe at the very thought of it. Under the awful sting of regret and disappointment looms the question: What next? We may feel that we have forfeited God's Plan A for our lives and are now stuck with Plan B. We couldn't, however, be further from the truth. In When We Have Failed-What Next?, K.P. Yohannan graciously takes us on a journey toward a bright and hopeful future. He again and again depicts God's unfailing love for us and His marvelous ability to bring out His very best for our lives, especially in the midst of our failure. Look up, for the best is truly yet to come.

Good counsel from the brethren in this thread. Here is a good message to watch also:

When God Asks Too Much by William Carrol
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=l4HpaQZd-P0

Hello dear brothers and sisters,
Just wanted to put in a few words. I have suffered with depression as most people do at some point in their lives. As a believer I have responded with much of what you all have written above. Sometimes it is related to sin, sometimes to fatigue, sometimes to disappointment or sorrow and our Lord was a man of sorrows acquainted with grief.
We can always fall upon the truth that He is aware of what is going on in our lives and is able to keep us. That seems like a simple answer. But our Lord is able to sustain us in "the best of times and the worst of times", to quote Charles Dickens,a man who also became a believer in Christ.

I believe that Charles Spurgeon and David Brainerd were subject to these bouts of melancholy and yet God used them mightily.

The best solution is to learn as Paul did to know that "none of these things affect me" for even though they are real and painful, they are not "reality" in Christ Jesus our Lord who for the joy set before him endured the cross.

This may take a lifetime to learn or realize but as Art Katz is fond of repeating. Which "reality" do we choose to live in? I don't say it is easy, but with God all things are possible. We overcome by the word of his testimony and the blood of the Lamb.

And I do thank God for this resource,sermonindex.net, to hear men and women of God who have lived in this Reality before us. And to see saints post similar questions and thoughts. What a gift to have this resource,LORD!
Thanks Greg, once again, for keeping it going,by the grace of GOD I know.

Sister Leslie

Thanks to all who prayed. Thanks for the book Greg. I wasn't able to watch the video. I'm grateful to God for giving me the grace to trust that i can be forgiven. The hymn "Depth of mercy can there be, mercy still reserved for me" has been most comforting. God knows i'm honestly weary of sin in every form, and if he love me this much to endure my insult, i believe he'll wipe away my shame and i shall sin no more. Pray for me, i'm currently suspended from a leadership office i'm holding. Thanks brethren

Dear Brother Iyke,
Last night I was listening to some downloaded messages from SI. I awakened like I was hit with a bolt of lightening to David Wilkerson speaking in a foreign nation. But the message was to all believers in all nations. It is called Purity in a Wicked Generation, I believe.

The fear of the Lord in regards to sin was convicting,and the whole compromise in the churches in regards to preaching only a part of the gospel. Mercy and Grace without Judgment and Wrath...in the New Testament context.
This false teaching is causing many many to fall into sin. We know this as those who believe and receive this message from the Bible, from God, and from the plethora of men and women of God we hear on this website, but I don't think I have ever heard it so clearly as in this message.

Listen to this message, it is convicting and yet done in absolute love. It addresses this "recurrent sin" that so many of us deal with and yet get no victory over and then deal with the consequences.

Just wanted to share this with anyone who is still not convinced that the fear of God is a GOOD thing. He loves us so very much and yet the message was, we TEMPT GOD by tolerating sin in our own lives. I was so convicted that I threw out stuff I have been tolerating as harmless. I had let the enemy come in the door!!!!! Thank you Jesus for your discipline!

In the Fear of the Lord as well as His great Mercy,
Sister Leslie

And thank you David for the kind comment. I feel like I'm coming out of a long sleep.

@leslie. A week before the mess, i listened to that message twice, and an audio compilation on the fear of God, ravenhill sermon on the judgment seat. I had several clear warning and prophecies to be careful. That very morning i was led to sing "christian seek ye not repose" when i think of all God did to help me, i feel like it was not a mistake but a deliberate rebellion. I just feel i should get my mind of it, thinking of it makes me contemplate leaving everything public ministry, many other thoughts including praying for death has filled my mind, the only thing i feel is helping me is the prayers of saints.

You know. I just want to add what everyone is saying. Not to overwhelm you but help you as well.

Believe. Repent. Remember. These are all great things. Do them.

I'd like to add, serve others. Go volunteer somewhere. Homeless shelter. Orphanage. Etc.

Also, get into physical fellowship with believers. Go out to coffee. Join a small group. Be around a few or a small group of people.

It's difficult to be depressed when you are helping people worse than yourself and when you are getting intimate with people.

P.S. After reading your initial post. I thought of 1 John 3:20

http://biblehub.com/1_john/3-20.htm