I have been thinking much lately about how I see so many people who are seemingly on fire for God. They are "excited" about what God is doing. They are involved in many things, busy, busy, busy. But...I think about where I am in my walk with God right now and how difficult it has been to get here, and I wonder, how do so many people just breeze right through? Are they for real?I'll use someone I know for an example. She is someone 13 years younger than me. She only begun to go to church about 5 years ago and only begun to really draw near to God maybe 2 years ago. Now, she has arrived. She is getting invitations to speak at women's groups. She has her own Christian website with weekly devotionals. Her husband and she both feel that they are being 'called into the ministry'. She calls me all the time with her prayer list. Here's what I am getting at: I see people who are religious and all fired up, and they look all good and everything, but I feel such pride in them. I feel that they have their own agenda that is about their own fulfillment that isn't really inspired by God at all. They would be angry if you mentioned such a thing. "I've already dealt with my pride on Jan. 15th, 199?" Is pride something you deal with on one occasion? Can God really use us if we are deceived like that in our own hearts? This is something I've been thinking about.I recently had a friend that I had disfellowshipped because of her continueing in sin. We hadn't really spoken in about 6 weeks. Just last week she called me up saying, "I miss you. I want us to be able to talk again. I feel like the prodigal son. I want to come home. Can we talk?" So I met with her and my pastor. She seemed sincere enough, saying she was sorry for her sins and she wanted to "submit" herself to God and to those he has placed in her life. But...a week has passed and I can see that she is still the same. She is in the dark. She is like a stone. I believe she wants to change, but she, of course, has no power to change. To me, help me here, maybe I'm wrong, but, to me, she does not truly humble herself. She doesn't really submit herself to God, she just wants people to "approve" of her. She is still going her own way. Can we go our own way and be a Christian? Love, Dian.
