If you are struggling with sin or know someone who is - here is the question of questions.
When I struggled with sin I did know that I felt assured that there was in Christ all I needed, but the practical question was how to get it out.
Is there no rescue? Must it be like this till the end - constant conflict and, instead of victory, too often defeat?
How, too, could I preach with sincerity that to those who receive Jesus, "to them gave He power to become the sons of God, " (i.e. God-like) when it was not so in my experience? Instead of growing stronger, I seemed to be getting weaker and to have less power against sin; and no wonder, for faith and even hope were getting very low. I hated myself; I hated my sin; and yet I gained no strength against it
I knew Christ was rich, but I was poor; He was strong, but I was weak. I knew full well that there was in the vine, in the root, the stem, abundant fatness; but how to get it into my puny little branch was the question.
I knew that if I could only abide in Christ all would be well, but I could not. I thought the answer was to keep looking to Jesus. I would begin each day with prayer, fully determined not to take my eye from Him for a moment, but pressure of duties, sometimes very trying, constant interruptions, often very wearing, would cause me to forget Him. Then one's nerves get so fretted in this climate that temptations to irritability, hard thoughts and sometimes unkind words are all the more difficult to control. Each day brought its register of sin, failure, and lack of power. To will was indeed present with me, but I never could perform any if it..
I knew that faith was the only prerequisite to laying hold of His fullness and making it my own. But I also knew that I had not this faith . . .
I strove for it, but it would not come; I tried to exercise it, but in vain. Seeing more and more the wondrous supply of grace laid up in Jesus, the fullness of our precious Savior - my helplessness and guilt seemed to increase.
Sins committed appeared but as trifles compared with the sin of unbelief which was their cause, which could not or would not take God at His word, but rather made Him a liar! Unbelief was, I felt, the damning sin of the world - yet I indulged in it. I prayed for faith but it did not come.
What was I to do?
