my dear brother....loved, I have just been laying back for about a half and hour now, just pondering everything, what you wrote in response to my simple flawed walk with God, thinking I deserve no esteem, as the kind you wrote, with love, thinking about the situation we have in world, the situation we have in this Faith, the situation we have in our souls, the situation we bear in these cracked clay vessels, or you could say "blades of grass" we inhabit for a season, the situation on this portion of cyberspace, the internet, this forum....all of it Dee.
and what came of this half and hour?....I don't know, and yet in certain aspects I do know, and the only Reason I MIGHT know is because God tells me, and I know the Sound of His Voice....and for that, I am so grateful to Him, I know that God loves me, whether it be God/Yahweh the Father, or Messiah Jesus the Son...I know that, I have ever since I was 7, and first crossed the threshold of our synagogue, the second I crossed, God has always been SO REAL to me, He protects me, loves me, has given me gifts of skill or knowledge....how can I ever REALLY "thank Him" enough?
How can I ever really thank Him enough for impelling YOU, via the indwelling Holy Spirit to testify about ME?!?....as if I am "anything", but another blade of grass?....and that is no false humility, its just knowing where I stand , love people, love them in their exquisite brokenness and flawed natures......as best as we can with our OWN brokenness.
In the past 6 months , a fell and dark spirit has come over this forum, I speak the truth in Christ. It manifests itself in all the "-ism's and -ist's", "doctrines", "theologies"....in putting up MAN MADE "fencelines" between "old and new Testaments", appropriating....no...nay, outright thievery of God's blessings and curses, attaching curses to the Vine, and stealing blessings to Ingrafted Vines, of parsing Portions of Scripture to make MAN....."right in their OPINIONS"....
its all so terrible and wrong, I cant even continue typing.
in 2002, God led me here, because by HIM, I knew the Theo-concept of "Revival" was good and pure, put it into "google" and was gifted with two websites, "Fireonthealtar dot com", and Sermonindex, and by His love, he led me to the only three human vessels I listen to (preachers, revivalists, exhorter's) and they are Len Ravenhill, Duncan Campbell, and Michael Brown....and I've listened to SO many of their testimonies and exhortations.....thrilled and filled me, and thru fireon thealtar, God gave me a heaven sent ministry for 3 years, 2002-04, which was cutting compilations with Jesus....and we took a small testimony of Duncan Campbells, about a 16(!) year old boy who was caught up in high places with God, and thru his tears, he raised a hand to Heaven and stated a VERY SIMPLE Reality....even today , 13 years later, I listen to it "Young Donald McPhail Prays"....and I am both crying with joy, and crying in sorrow....joy?...because I know this can happen again, and sorrow, because I know, if we keep heading in the current course, billions of people will die.....
My ONLY burden is REVIVAL, which is God's Glory...for you brother Dee....its just a tiny taste that God is Loving and Good..
https://www.sermonindex.net/modules/mydownloads/visit.php?lid=5675
God love you, neil