Passion for Him

The only fear I have is to fear to get out of the will of God.Outside of the will of God, there's nothing I want, and inwill of God there's nothing I fear, for God has sworn tokeep me in His will. If I'm out of his will that's anothermatter. But if I'm in His will, He's sworn to keep me.-A. W. Tozer"The Lord is very jealous over any saint who is utterly abandoned to Him.He does not let that believer have any pleasures at all outside of Himself." -M.Jeane Guyon After this past weekend and talking with some other christians, I was left with a homesick feeling. An ache in my heart for the Lord.I was wondering why do I so relate to these above quotes and then there are others who just do not have these feelings? They cannot understand me and my passion; and I cannot understand them and their lack of it. We do not understand each other. Everyone calls for 'balance', yet there is no 'balancing God'. We are either consumed with Him (hot) or we are not (lukewarm or cold).We are meant to be a peculiar people. A special people that are His very own.In His love, Chanin

Chanin,I think I understand what your saying perfectly. God bless, sister.In Christ,-Eli

QuoteI was wondering why do I so relate to these above quotes and then there are others who just do not have these feelings? They cannot understand me and my passion; and I cannot understand them and their lack of it. We do not understand each other. Everyone calls for 'balance', yet there is no 'balancing God'. We are either consumed with Him (hot) or we are not (lukewarm or cold).QuoteAfter this past weekend and talking with some other christians, I was left with a homesick feeling. An ache in my heart for the Lord.A consuming feeling, lost for words.May "Revival" spring forth, in us!May "Passion" for him spring forth, in us!May "Salvation" for the lost and the hurting spring forth, in us!We die that you may live,We decrease so that you may increase,More of you and less of Me...May we never feel alone, as we seek to know you more...Thank You lord for Revelation / Knowledge for Wisdom, and for your anoiting bubbeling up inside of us, to search the scriptures to eat your Delicacies from Heaven above. Be Still!!!

Hi Chanin,This article in your website reminded me of the individual dealings of the Lord. This has really blessed me.Others May But You CannotIf God has called you to be truly like Jesus in all your spirit, He will draw you into a life of crucifixion and humility. He will put on you such demands of obedience that you will not be allowed to follow other Christians. In many ways, He seems to let other good people do things which He will not let you do. Others who seem to be very religious and useful may push themselves, pull wires, and scheme to carry out their plans, but you cannot. If you attempt it, you will meet with such failure and rebuke from the Lord as to make you sorely penitent. Others can brag about themselves, their work, their successes, their writings, but the Holy Spirit will not allow you to do any such thing. If you begin to do so, He will lead you into some deep mortification that will make you despise yourself and all your good works.Others will be allowed to succeed in making great sums of money, or having a legacy left to them, or in having luxuries, but God may supply you only on a day-to-day basis, because He wants you to have something far better than gold, a helpless dependence on Him and His unseen treasury. The Lord may let others be honored and put forward while keeping you hidden in obscurity because He wants to produce some choice, fragrant fruit for His coming glory, which can only be produced in the shade. God may let others be great, but keep you small. He will let others do a work for Him and get the credit, but He will make you work and toil without knowing how much you are doing. Then, to make your work still more precious, He will let others get the credit for the work which you have done; this to teach you the message of the Cross, humility, and something of the value of being cloaked with His nature. The Holy Spirit will put a strict watch on you, and with a jealous love rebuke you for careless words and feelings, or for wasting your time which other Christians never seem distressed over. So make up your mind that God is an infinite Sovereign and has a right to do as He pleases with His own, and that He may not explain to you a thousand things which may puzzle your reason in His dealings with you. God will take you at your word; if you absolutely sell yourself to be His slave, He will wrap you up in a jealous love and let other people say and do many things that you cannot. Settle it forever; you are to deal directly with the Holy Spirit, He is to have the privilege of tying your tongue or chaining your hand or closing your eyes in ways which others are not dealt with. However, know this great secret of the Kingdom: When you are so completely possessed with the Living God that you are, in your secret heart, pleased and delighted over this peculiar, personal, private, jealous guardianship and management of the Holy Spirit over your life, you will have found the vestibule of heaven, the high calling of God.G.D.Watson (1845-1924) God bless.Rey

I was wondering why do I so relate to these above quotes and then there are others who just do not have these feelings? They cannot understand me and my passion; and I cannot understand them and their lack of it. We do not understand each other. I can understand where you're coming from. I've been there. At the same time, I believe God has allowed me times of personal experience where I could be in that place of having compassion and understanding to human weakness. This by no means is any sort of justification to live a life of bondage, but then we have Jesus as our example. He never compromised, never disobeyed His Father in heaven, but still somehow understood the hearts of men, saw their weaknesses and bondage, and was still compassionate and promised to never leave or forsake humankind. When we can't understand other Christians sometimes, be encouraged to ask God to see through His eyes. Where you are at is a perfect place... not to give up on weaker Christians, but to lend a helping hand, being a loving example of God's love. Just as God has loved us, we have the opportunity to love others with that very same love. God has poured into you, given you a greater, deeper passion. And what God has poured out onto you was meant to be passed on to others. He will help you. He will continue to grant you faith, hope and love for others.

Chanin, I love this!! I feel so desperate for more of HIM. Everytime I go to my prayer closet, my continuing prayer is "Lord you're my hearts desire. Reveal yourself to me." I desire nothing else!! I used to think spending eternity in heaven would be kind of boring, but now I think I could spend eternity just gazing at His face. Just the thought of Him makes my heart leap! My only 2 desires are for Him to reveal himself to me and that I allow him to reveal himself through me. My biggest fear is that my flesh would cause HIS image to be distorted. In HIM, Tina

Tina,to be honest, last week I saw you had posted that same phrase (My only 2 desires are for Him to reveal himself to me and that I allow him to reveal himself through me.) and it really hit me how my heart had started to grow a little cold. I wasn't as hot as I once was. For over three years my desire and passion has been about the same as yours- to see God glorified in and through me. It is even pretty evident in my past posts on SI and on my website. But here lately with all the things I've been going through, the fear and anxiety of it all, it really put some of my fire out. When I read your words, immediately I thought "i gotta get back there". Jesus gives the remedy to us in Revelation to the lukewarm church of Laodicea and to the church at Ephesus: Repent!"Remember therefore from where you have fallen; repent and do the first works, or else I will come to you quickly and remove your lampstand from its place--unless you repent." And "Therefore be zealous and repent."I could not make excuses. There are none. So I repented and did away with some things that I had let slip into my daily life. Not bad things necessarily, but distractions. Even little attitudes like self pity and "poor me, i'm a victim" type things had started to put my fire out. I repented of attitudes that were not very self-sacrificing.Then I had the opportunity to talk to some people this weekend and automatically things came up and some voiced their opinions about their "rights" and acting on feelings instead of the truth and doing the right thing. (It amazes me how modern psychology has merged with christianity and produced some really grey areas). I got to talk about how I liked to be convicted. Many times if a sermon or book isn't convicting to me, I don't want to read it. I want to grow and change! I want to be less of me and show more of Him. There is a cost (which I knew before, but now I am living it) but when you present it to others they want no part of it. They don't want a cost. It offends them to see you willing to die literally or figurately (die to the flesh). They have an excuse for everything. I am tired of excuses. When I know what is right to do, then I must do it, regardless of how I "feel" or what I want. Obedience is better than sacrifice. I want to obey my Lord. I want to please Him. Speaking my convictions really brought my fire to the surface, it just needed a little "stoking". :)There are many who want to have that passion, they want to be able to live with a burning passion in them, yet they are unwilling to lay down what needs to be layed down. They are unwilling to go the distance or consider the cost. I pray that all who say they want to have that burning passion and see it come to ignite, that they will "give in" and give up. What i mean by this is that they will surrender it all. Their rights, their plans, their attitudes, their very life. He is so worthy of it, isn't He?!In His love, Chanin

Dear Sister, I can totaly relate to everything that you're saying. The Lord has shown me that my despair and self pitty stem from unbelief. In particular not believing His love for me. I remember praying this one day "Lord how can you love me, I'm so sinful and your so awesome," and He just stopped me right in the middle of my prayer and said, "You think you're praying a prayer of humility, but you're praying a prayer of unbelief. Stop it, I love you and you are precious in my sight." He is so amazing...He is LOVE! He is so worth it all!!! He can have eveything I have because I know that everything I have amounts to a heap of garbage! If I have anything of value, it's because of Him living in me!!!! God is so good to us Chanin becuase we've all blown it. We've all had those moments when we get our eyes off Him for a moment and let those old fears creap back in. When you're totaly sold out to Him, He will never ever let you go! He will use those times in our life to show us how weak we are without Him. You are so precious to Him. He has used your life in such an incredible way and He will contiue to for a long time!! IN HIS LOVE, Tina