From gleaning over the pages on this forum, it seems to me brother that many on this forum suffer undue stress because they either do not know our faithful and loving God, or they do not believe Him.
Have you ever sincerely considered these verses:
God is good, and does good. Psalm 119:68
...who works all things according to the counsel of His will Ephesians 1:11
God works all things for the good of those who love Him and are called according to His purpose. Romans 8:28
If we walk by sight, by what we see happening in this world, if we walk by feeling, if our eyes are only on what we think is good or bad for us, if we live by what we hear, the so called "news" of this world. If we do these things, we are walking by our senses, which is called "walking by the flesh", if you walk in your flesh, you will never know or see the goodness of our God. Everything that happens in your life, whether you lose your job, your parent or child dies, you are sick, happens for your eternal good. God is good, and can only do good. He is sovereign meaning that nothing can happen in our lives or this world, unless God permits it to be so. If you walk by faith, in the word of God. Laying hold of His character and promises, you will know how true and loving and faithful our God really is. God works His salvation in us. Every event in your life is for the purpose of your real good. When you trust God and believe this, you will understand what I'm sharing. Disappoint only comes to those who do not believe or trust God, by reason of their senses.