After I met the Lord while in a foreign prison, there were many who imagined I’d be instantly transformed and were openly critical when that wasn’t the case. Being the only while male prisoner in a facility that was 300% over capacity made my conversion a notable thing for some and they would say it wasn’t sincere and call me a hypocrite. The truth is, after the Lord arranged for pardon and deportation back to the states, I immediately began seeking the same life that had led me to prison in the first place, even having some "success” in my criminal endeavors, those were the people I knew, the connections I had, the only people who were looking out for me and trying to help until I got home (Alabama) where my family and friends could help till I could get back on my feet. Tho to be completely honest, I continued in sin for the better part of a decade tho the Lord was disciplining me, I didn’t understand it and didn’t respond as one with understanding. This continued until I found myself with two small children and a young wife that wanted a divorce. In spite of my best efforts, my marriage and small business failed and I was forced to start over (again). Tho this time, I had lost enough, had been made poor enough that I was finally willing to accept the charity of heaven. Tho this was now more than a decade after my conversion and baptism, it was the first point where the Lords will was the central focus and not mine. Still I messed up ALLOT and tho I was sincere, I was sincerely wrong far more often than not but the Lord continued disciplining me and as I began to receive it, He began to gain ground in my heart. After a couple of years of discipleship training in a local church, I grew really hungry for the Lords word and that’s when I found SI ðŸ™ðŸ» It was a godsend- that was over a decade ago somewhere around fall of ‘09
So in giving a bit of my testimony, I’m hoping to illustrate how that in spite of how effective Gods grace is, not everyone starts in the same place. I had been in a context (surrounded by) not only sin, but criminal enterprises and there were allot of entanglements that weren’t going to just quit themselves overnight. However once the Lord had finally broken me and I mean broken me clean into with no hope of recovery, which occurred more than a decade after my conversion and baptism, He then baptized me with His Holy Spirit and that changed everything. Instantly most everyone knew something had happened, He made me repent publicly in many different ways doing works meet with repentance. I went from a successful business owner with a wife and two small boys in a nice home on a good street in a respectable neighborhood to literally living on a dog bed in the music room of my unsaved brother in law and I’d never been more content 😊. Did I still have a harvest to reap from all the sowing of sin? ABSOLUTELY! and He spared me not, the shame nor the struggle nor the pain but had to walk it out for all who knew me to see. To this day, I stumble, get distracted, and get things wrong far too often, tho He remains faithful to bring to completion the work which He first began ðŸ™ðŸ»
It’s been observed that in this world, societies abort their young (effectively consuming them) while they excuse the misdeeds of the adults and the "church” often does the same. This should not be so, but even tho it happens and is even accepted as "normal” in the current culture, Jesus knows well how to keep those whom belong to Him.
It seems that if my life had been under a worldwide media microscope I’d have been given much the same treatment as Kanye and rejected by the greater body but accepted by Christ. He was never ashamed to call me His own but rather demonstrated that I was His by disciplining me and growing Himself in me and me in Christ.
Kanye is a very interesting case in that I can’t think of another conversion that has occurred to a more sinful person with such a high profile worldwide. While it may be, as it was in my situation, a long painful public process, it nonetheless demonstrates Gods mercy, forbearance and long suffering. It’s not that God is slow, as some assume, rather He is patient and merciful, not wanting any to perish but all to come unto repentance 😇
Again, if we were to measure David by the same metrics that we tend to apply to Kanye, he’d fail even more spectacularly for here is a man who is known to be Gods anointed and yet after a lifetime of walking with the Lord with all the triumphs and tragedies, he (David) fell into sin and remained there for years till Nathan was finally able to reach him. Tho this was t without its cost, to both David, his children and Israel herself not to mention the Lords name, nonetheless God never left or forsook him.
Could you even imagine what the current media would do and say if David were PM of Israel today and this happened?? When I look into such things, I can only imagine they (we) would be as likely to mercilessly condemn him with full support of the "church” ... you know the one with tansvestite homosexual drag queens in the pulpit on the one side and CRT promoters in the other openly blaspheming the Lords name in order to keep their coveted 501c3 status with a corrupt system 🤷🽔♂ï¸
As I see it, this man Kanye West, was led astray by his own lusts and in His mercy the Lord offered him redemption,... wether or not he continues with the Lord is up to him but I know this to be true, namely that the same God who reached down and pulled me from the filth and shame of sin more times than Einstein could count will do the same for Kanye if he is willing -
He who sins much is forgiven much and therefore loves much, he who sins little is forgiven little and therefore loves little .
We’d do well not to throw rocks lest they find their way back and hit us in the mouth- yes this has happened to me and many others that I’ve personally witnessed. Rather let us with all meekness and lowliness seek to restore those back to the faith who have fallen into sin.
This is the way âœï¸