Precious brother Dom. I have read your posts and replies with much prayerful thought over the last several months. I would ask if you already have or would consider spending both quanity and quality morning time in quiet devotions in the presence of Jesus. I have no real reason to believe you don't , except for some tendencies I see in your posts. Alot of times we all seem to have a hit or miss devotional time and that will give rise to the spiritual rollercoaster so many christians seem to experience. Quietness in the sight of Jesus where we quiet ourselves, or as the old quakers used to say, where we center down, and focus on Jesus, is of g-r-e-a-t value in the sight of God and all other things will take care of themselves. God Bless Your fellow sojourner in Christ Bro. Daryl