Thank you Doug for answering. I appreciate your honesty and yes, again, I do believe that God will use you to comfort others, wherewith you've been comforted and has and will increase your "compassion" for all of humankind !!!Bottomline.I know I said that all on page one, but what I hadn't said, is something that brother Greg brought up.I guess I was hesitant to bring up "childhood" stuff, not wanting to get near psychology of sorts.I'll do this as quickly as I can.When I was 2 mo.s old, my mom left my wonderful dad and us 5 kids.Dad couldn't find anyone to watch "all" of us, so I was shipped out, being the youngest and no one wanted to care for a 2 mo. old.By time I was 13, I had been shipped around to a total of 5 different homes.Each more abusive than the next.I joined the military to get away, and met, who I thought would be the 1ST Love I'd ever have.He almost physically killed me and never worked,he did drugs, crime, etc. adultery plus worse stuff, though before we married, he said he had asked Jesus into his heart and acted like a Godsend to me. Found out, he only wanted a meal ticket.I got an annulment after 3 yr.s by God's deliverance only, to marry again, and more trouble then I could ever post here after that.With all of that came an anxiety attack (finally) where they thought I'd never live a normal life again. All of this may play a part of why I am physically disabled now,(at least maybe the heart problem part), but the beauty of the testimony, is that I "believed" God can give ANY of us, a Sound Mind, and no matter what ... the Lord will see us through it.It may take a little time, but you'll smile as you look back, one day.So what I wrote on page one, was not just from someone who studied psychology for years, but someone who the Dr.s almost gave up on. I was so severely abused, from 2 mo.s old onto adulthood, that they called it PTSD, or severe anxiety reaction, and few Dr.s give a favorable prognosis for that degree of trauma.But Glory To GOD Alone, I proudly have a sheet of paper I cherish as a testimony to God, by a Dr. who basically said, it's a MIRACLE that this lady is even Sane. And when he said 'sane', he really meant 'sane', because He was awed and I just smiled as we spoke and gave all the Glory to a 'Living' God. And the wonder of the Saints who were praying for me at the time. Wow ! The Lord spoke to them, that I would be O.K., when no one else thought that could happen. The kinda smile I gave that Dr., sorta makes others need sunglasses to see. HA ! Even though I smile without showing my teeth. We call it a "frog smile". This kind -> :-D , HA.Please read my 1st post again, 'cause the main point is "no condemnation" to anyone going through this .... just 'patient' endurance and allowing Jesus to see you through, 'unto the end'. :-) I feel a little exposed now, for sharing, but all who have posted on this thread here, have made me feel it is worth it.Nothing shall pluck us out of HIS HAND !!!Rom 8:28,29 are my "life verses".God Bless you all who've posted here.Annie