Hi sister Diane ...Speaking soley for myself, as you've said "filtering things thru my own experience(s)" with God, i find there to be different levels of "rest" ... Such as i'm completely at rest that the Bible is the Word of God, and completely at rest that i'm saved in our Lord Jesus Christ and am heavenbound ... i'm also completely at rest that even tho at present the Body of Christ doesn't quiet seem to be up to par in saltiness and light, that the gates of hell will not prevail against it ... But the rest i spoke of to brother Ironman has to do with God's calling to those of us who have come to believe that He has a specific purpose for, in, and with our lives ... i believe there comes a time in the specific work when He'll temporarily (as He did with Ezekiel) shut us down for His own specific reasons ... True God has a plan and purpose for ALL His children that come to Him, but Scripture is replete with those few in comparison to the greater majority of saints, who are called out according to what you refered to as a "special" calling/purpose ... i personally don't like to use the term "special" or "doing something great for God" because it makes others have a tendency to chalk "pride" up to anyone who believes they're hearing something from God that most others arent ... For the record, from my point of view, any of us who in fact have been called of Him to His own specific purpose of moving and shaking His Body and/or the world in general has been called of no "special" merit of our own, but simply because God decided to do the choosing ... In my own belief/experience of being picked out by Him for a specific work, i have a really difficult time understanding why in that there are so many others far more worthy and faithful in my book from which He could have chosen ...So 25 years ago i had my salvation experience, resting in the fact that i'm washed in the blood ... But the more i went on in church the more Holy Spirit kept pointing out things to me that we as the Body must quit - The first being the ugliness of denominationalism ... He sent me on a mission regarding this, and i could not "rest" until the task of bringing a Baptist preacher/church and Pentecostal preacher/church together in fellowship, worship and praise was done ... In fact these two preachers/churches are the same two (i believe) He's assigned me to all these years, and i firmly believe will be instrumental to the welfare of so many souls in the Philly area in lieu of the hardships coming ...i remember when the work got to hard for me and i did my Jonah routine ... i had no rest from my rebellion until i repented and got myself back in line with the specific work prescribed for me to do ... Now that that work is done (for that particular season) i am at complete rest from that end of the work, and am now being prepared for the continuance of His work for me in the new season ...It's the same with The Called finally coming out in publication ... Here's something that has taken 18 years to come to fruition, and yes had i had what it took to rest thru that period in the fact that all things occur (if its of Him) in His perfect timing, i could have saved myself 18 years of fretting, but i didn't ... But i can now say that even in this i am now at rest, and it was in His reconnecting me to the preparedness of publication that i was even able to rest in His shuting my mouth ... i've often said that i could have really done without what you so rightly described as that "inner nagging" - that nagging that Jeremiah described as fire shut up in his bones ... It's a compelling that seems to drive some of us way past the acceptable, and comfortable status quo ... i've often questioned myself as to whether that drive was of me or of God, and have come to believe that it has to be of Him becasue if it was left up to me i'd be chillin like it seems so many other church folk are ...And finally let me say that i don't feel like anythings missing in Christ, but i do have the nagging feeling that a whole lot is missing in Christ Church as far as our representing the Kingdom of God as His ambassadors to this lost and dying world, and i know i can't take credit for placing that nagging in myself ... It's the same as i feel about the souls of my fellow unbeliveing human beings being swept into eternal hell, the burden i feel for this is straight up of the Spirit of God, and anything that i do toward the salvation of the souls of the unsaved is not by my might or power, but of His own thru a not always so willing instrument ... i truly believe that as long as God has His work for me to do i'll never be content in that aspect until i've done what it is that He has for me to do ... And true what you said "I know that if he has something for me, fine, but that is up to him, and he will make it happen the way he wants." ... But for me, being like Jacob, yeah i have the promise, and yes He gave me the vision, and sure nuff He don't need my help to get me there, but scripture says that the Kingdom of God is taken by those with that nagging sensation that there's more, and that He is a rewarder of we that diligently (painstakingly) seek Him ... In my salvation i take Him upon His word that i can rest - and so i do, but when it comes to His work for me i want to keep on scrappin up that mountain until i hear Him say for me to rest "a minute" ... And i believe that as long as i'm down here with His work for me to do, that rest will always be a temporary one, as i know that when He allows us to lay one burden down, that rest period will give us renewed strenght to pick up and even move a heavier one ... i'll rest contented and complete once i get to glory ... Amen