The steps of a righteous man are established by the Lord And He delights in his way. Though he fall, he shall not be utterly cast down; For the Lord upholds him with His hand. (Psalm 37: 23,24) The verses out of the 37th psalm above describe my life the last seven years. At a time in my life when I was closer to God than I had ever been I fell into sin. I really thought that I had fallen into the one place in the universe that God had forgotten about and therefore couldn't find me. But all the while He was holding me up with His hand, even though I couldn't see Him working. Oh what grace and mercy there is available in God! The last few months I haven't been very active on the internet and my words have become few. God's been teaching me a new language....again. I used to want to argue and establish my position...and I do mean mine though I thought I was standing for the Lord. I figured I had something to teach people when it was I who needed to learn. Jesus humbly took the basin and towel to my feet and washed them when I was in the midst of my pride and lovingly destroyed that sinful pride in His humility. "If I, your master, have washed your feet..." He's given me new eyes so I can see, new ears so I can hear, and a new heart so I can love.I've never been one to be given to making New Year's resolutions, but at the end of this year I find myself reflecting on the incredible grace that God has poured into my life in the last several months. In reality it seems a coincidence that I've made these resolutions at the end of the year because it wasn't the approaching new year that inspired them, but my longing for a new and changed heart. I've come up with nineteen so far--I'm nowhere close to Jonathan Edwards' 70, but like him I'm going to keep these and read them often. Here's the list that's on my heart:1. Love others above myself2. Learn and seek humility (I pray for the grace to be humble so that I may recieve more grace to be more humble so that I may recieve grace)3. See myself as I really am before I see others.4. Wait on the Lord. (I want to wait on Jesus as a faithful steward waits quitely and patiently before his king.)5. Do nothing without the Lord's leading.6. Die to myself7. Live to God8. Be a servant9. Seek no position of honor for myself10. Humbly obey my parents and those above me without complaining or murmering11. Glory in my weaknesses12. Seek to place no stumbling block in front of a brother in Christ13. Hold no offences and keep no record of wrongs done to me14. Forgive as I have been forgiven15. Consider the poor16. Lift up and encourage those who are young or weak in their faith in Christ17. Know no man after the flesh18. Know nothing but Christ and Him crucified19. Disappear or become so transparent that all people see in me is Christ
