Covetousness(My own)

Dear brothers and sisters in Christ, please allow me to make this confession before you. I am not asking for your response, except that you pray if God so leads. Thank you.A little while ago I was reading the update from the open-air outreach team and as I read the report I realised I had been neglecting to pray for them when it came to my attention and I honestly knew I didn't really want to. But why?? After realising this I went to my knees to pray for them becuase I knew I "should".I believe God revealed to me the reason for being reluctant to offer my prayers for them.I have been coveting glory.Since preaching in the open-air is something I have "dreamed" about but have not done, nor been empowered to do, I was jealous that others were. And in reality I believe I have been coveting the glory of this instead of desiring to lift up Jesus and bringing Him the glory He deserves.If you feel led to pray please do. Thankyou.Christopher Joel Dandrow

I have been coveting the glory of this instead of desiring to lift up Jesus and bringing Him the glory He deserves.May God bless you, Christopher, for sharing. No doubt it was the Spirit that spoke this to your conscience. I think that God sometimes puts us on the "back burner" and allows us to watch others get the glory. He is testing us and crucifying our flesh. As you say, it's really all about HIS glory, not ours. It looks like for now the closet is your place of honor - quietly in prayer. This may be an important spiritual step for you. I hope you are journaling it. Diane

Hi everyone, thanks again for letting me present this confession and for the grace you've shown me.Annie and Diane, thank you both for the encouragment and wisdom that you shared. Your prayers are very much welcomed and appreciated. And Diane, I have been admonished before to keep a journal and I think there is something in my heart that wants to avoid it.May God be with us,Christopher

I guess we are all guilty of this !! DOm